And so it ends. Not in darkness, but in blood.
With the blade in my hand I took her and blood was
our maritial covenant. She never offered any resistance, she knew
what was coming. She knew I was coming. Kadmon repenting, closing
the circle, laying his judgment upon Lilith.
Thank you, Alice. Your spheres made me remember her,
remember her beauty. Remember my duty. Once I opposed you, old friend,
but today I carried out your unspoken order. Once I begged for her
life, today I took it. You showed wisdom then, not ordering me to
punish her, knowing that eventually I would. Was this all part of
your Big Picture? Why can't we just leave in dignity, why
this fight against ourselves? Why not accept the inescapable and
go? Everything must go. Why must we all chain ourselves to futile
dying hopes? And why does wisdom always come too late?
The blade is lying on the ground, smeared with blood,
in a pool of red wet sand. Her body is lying not far away; still,
no longer bleeding, all her hopes torn asunder, all her fears fulfilled.
The look in her eyes no longer painful; broken, but never accusing.
The echoes of her last scream still reverberate through
the still air; full of anger, frustration and the knowledge of a
final rest she screamed out her soul's sorrow when my blade
bit her flesh. Not trying to draw away from me, embracing me instead,
pressing her body deeper into the blade, rocking gently back and
forth, as if she was making love to me. Our first kiss, at the same
time our last; deep, long, and full of the darkest flavour.
The sky in Meny was twilight, the domed roof high
above our heads hiding the clouds above that shield us from the
stars. I wish she would kiss me, but she only leaned closer, whispering,
her head hovering above our two cups of coffee, "I always wonder
why all our names have a meaning. Slayer, Intruder, Eldritch, Banshee.
Each of them, and nobody seems to escape it."
I was impressed from the beginning when I met her.
Not only the beauty of her body, the structure of her Formulae.
The beauty of her mind. So full of perfection that no language ever
could name her properly; never, in more than 800 years did I meet
a woman as unreal as Banshee was.
"Do you know the meaning of yours?"
She only nodded then, her smiling lips dropping to
a slim line. "And I chose it myself, when I Came of Age. Sometimes
later a heretic told me that it meant Weeping Woman. Weeping for
the dead," She looked at me, her eyes full of pain, "I
weep for everybody, Eldritch. Everyday. Not only the dead. Everybody."
"Is that all?" I hoped she would answer
yes, but she didn't.
"He told me more. He said that my last scream
would end the world. That I was born under the sign of the Eternal
Serpent."
Now, so many years later, Necronatirian has finally
come to her, with me, its prophet being its messenger. The truth
we all struggle so long -indeed, our whole life-
against, has come to her and she is free. Soon it will be my time
to follow her, to leave the lies behind and face the Eternal Serpent
myself. Alice has been right. I am the last; I may not have been
the first here, but this place will never die. We all have our own
Mort and although we might sometimes experience someone else's
Mort, we all have to face Mort alone in the end.
White Earth calls, and with me this universe shall
die -as will I, and Banshee's dying scream will be the
sound that I will follow until its ripples crash against a foam-tormented
shore and I can see the White Tower and the chaotic images at the
horizon, rising until they reach the racing clouds and dissolve.
The blade is cold. So cold. As cold as Banshee's
lips and all the sudden all of them are here. All who have gone
before, Slayer, Senti, Intruder, Wave, Hellraiser, Alice, even the
Walker. All of them smiling, guiding, beckoning me.
To White Earth.
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